I'm going to have my thesis hard bound tonight. Hopefully, it will be ready by Monday morning and I can finally enjoy summer. (:

I went swimming earlier this afternoon with my cousin. She's only five but she fit into my three-year old tankini. Haha, I told her she could have it since I haven't been using it anymore. How cute is this girl? She even has more cleavage than I (will ever) have. She wanted to go swimming at ONE in the afternoon. Hello honey, do you want to get fried? I think not. So after much prodding, I agreed to go with her at 3 in the afternoon. I tried to stay in the shade, but I also wanted to swim. So after dousing myself with sunblock, we swam. Heh. She looked so cute with her butt bobbing in and out of the water when she tried to swim. This little girl is adorable but it freaks me out that she likes kissing me on the lips all the time. Ate, isa pa! Sige na! Iscurry.

Anyway. Birthday party tonight. Yehey.

After such a long time of not riding one, I took the jeep home earlier this afternoon. At first, I was pissed because no one could come pick me up. (I'm such a brat.) Then, when I was going around UP (the jeep goes around the campus first before finally going to Katipunan), I actually felt good about commuting. Wind-in-your-hair effect, people riding and getting off, "Para ho, mama!" and all those trivial things you notice on a jeepney trip. I even saw one of my high school batchmates on the jeep. A bit of thesis talk ensued before they got off at MassComm. I'm still not sure how I made it through four years of UP. Hehe. I think it's something to be proud of, actually. Lots of people always said I wasn't "fit" for UP. But look at me now, just a month away from graduating. Wow. Which reminds me.. I should order my sablay soon, heh. Before supplies run out.

Is it me or is it getting hotter and hotter? Ick. I'm breaking out, and now I've got these weird bites all over my legs. And what's weird is, I was wearing jeans today! Hrmm. Odd, odd, odd. Not to mention, itchy, itchy, itchy.

Oh, and congratulations to the Atenean grads. Wow, welcome to the real world indeed.

I think I'll start writing here for now. I feel more comfortable here for some reason. And I love my rainbow layout, heh.

Count on me to spend my first few days of summer in prettifying blogs. Heh. Isn't it pretty? I'm in love with the video of "Hey Mama". Maybe some time I'll put in silhouettes around the header, or something. For now, just a rainbow and fancy text.

So I'm up early as usual. What's on the agenda for today? 10am. I'm supposed to help my friend with her uncle's campaign. Er, we're teaching their campaign girls steps to the jingle (which I'm told is to the tune of Come on Over by Christina Aguilera, heh). If I didn't love my friend that much, I wouldn't do it. And later tonight, it's my good friend's grad dinner. I still can't believe we're all done with college. Wow.

My page looks like I sprinkled M&Ms or Skittles all over the place, haha!

I'm supposed to be at the beach with him now! Wah. But I'm not. Ah well. There will be other times, I'm sure.

I can stay a whole day without bathing. Have I told you that?

The dirty girl. Yes, like today, I spent the entire day in front of the computer editing my thesis. Mwahaha. It's already 7 in the evening and I am my grimey little self. (: Dirty and comfy. Who cares? Nobody will see me, anyway. And unlike some people I know (who I love dearly!), I really don't care much if I go to bed in this sorry state. Haha.

I bet all of you are cringing in your seats right now. Next time you see me, you'll think twice about coming near me, huh? Hehe!

Disclaimer: I never go out of the house unbathed, unless (1) I'm just dropping off something at the building/dorm; (2) I woke up late and I need to be out of the house by 7 am; and um, that's it.

So this is what the radiation of the computer does to your brain. *zombie* I'm finally done.

Let me recount to you the past two days of my so-called thesis life. Yesterday, I hurriedly typed up the information that I wanted to be projected on the stark white wall in the Conference Room. I'm terrified of PowerPoint presentations because they never turn out the way I want them to, so OHP it is. I went to school to watch one of my batchmates' defense. When I got home, I finished off a bar of KitKat Chunky (Oh man, I'm addicted to this.) before taking a nap. I wanted to start on my presentation, but the Internet is evil. So after two hours of wandering aimlessly online (I promised myself an hour, but well..), I finally went to my room and read through my thesis. I found so many typos! Eek. But anyway. After reading through it twice, I went back to the PC and typed up the "notes" for my presentation. I ended up staying up `til midnight cutting and pasting my notes onto 5x8 index cards. I practiced twice with my pretty hair thingy and I thought I sounded (not to mention, looked) pretty good. Hah.

So this morning, I got up pretty late. I didn't want to be stressed at all. I practiced a few more times, this time in my pseudo-corporate outfit. (I told my friend, can we wear sleeveless? It's a turtle neck, anyway. Heh.) I was originally going to wear a maroon dress to proclaim my love for my school. Haha, but never mind. I wanted to wear the hairband but the pink didn't go too well with the turtle neck, pinstriped pants look. Oh, and the killer shoes. My batchmates teased that I was armed with deadly weapons. Just in case.

I sat through my co-advisee's defense not thinking about my own. I was honestly not nervous, until I realized it was my turn! I spaced out about ten seconds while my adviser was introducing me. I wonder why. Anyway. I breezed through my presentation. I think I wasn't even stopping to catch my breath anymore. I found myself gasping at some point of my "speech". All in all though, I think I did okay. The panelists weren't as vicious or as harsh as I was expecting them to be. They were very helpful and they seemed to genuinely like what I did. So after ironing out the kinks of my thesis, they gave their nods. I am going to graduate. I am, I am! That is, after I pass my final copy on Thursday and discuss it Friday morning with my adviser. I will have to figure out where she lives.

My friend Kaye: MACY U ROCK! ;p u dnt stres n ur thesis too much, n u jst way r0ck!ü

I can't say I didn't stress at all, but yeah.. I rock. Haha (:

Tomorrow's the BIG day! I don't have the familiar feeling of racing heartbeats and queasiness in the stomach. I wonder why. This is my third concert during my stay in UP. Wow. (: The dances keep getting fewer and fewer, but tougher and tougher. Man, I'm going to miss the club. I wonder if I'll still stay and train with them next sem - because, hopefully, by that time I'll be working. (Wow, that sounds a bit off. Haha! Me? Working?) They're my family! And like what someone said before, they're my stronghold on my faith. (I can't believe I'm saying this, knowing two years ago, I was complaining about the "ministry".) I LOVE THE CLUB! ♥ I hope everybody enjoys the concert tomorrow. (:

I can't believe I'm cramming yet again. But what else is new, right? I'll have the next few months to sleep anyway. Two more weeks, two more weeks.

We won. Second place isn't so bad, I keep telling myself - because it isn't! Right? But how come I get this sick feeling in my stomach whenever we get compared to the first place winners? It didn't help that my parents & my brother , when I approached them after the show, showered that group with praises and didn't even congratulate us. Thanks anyway, at least you watched.

I'm getting lazier and lazier and I don't understand why exactly. I've all the motivation in the world to dance and write but never to do anything related to school. WHY!? Augh. It can get frustrating sometimes. I mean, come on, who rushes a test just so she can meet the call time for a competition? What do I get in the test? A friggin' 26 out of 40. What the hell. I disappoint myself sometimes. Oh, and it was supposed to be an easy test, too. It's hard when you study the wrong things though.

My main concerns tonight, this morning, whatever, are my thesis, tomorrow's oh-so-interesting group discussion (notice my sarcasm) and Saturday's concert. I'm tired and my brain is really fried, but what can I do? I downed a lot of Coke and Sarsi tonight. Hello, belly - but at least I'll be awake for awhile. Marathon!

I read this somewhere: "LJ is the new Friendster." It was meant as a joke, but you know what, everyone is starting to get LJs. I remember two years ago when I stalked Mika and Cile's LJs. Ha. Memorized all those addresses `til Jen took pity on me and got me a code. I can't believe I chronicled two years (and more out of LJ!) of my life online.

I think I'm getting too lazy for my own good. I care more about my extra curricular concerns than my academics (read: thesis). This scares me, because in about a month, I'm supposed to be DONE with college and marching down some aisle in the University. Why be complacent now? Augh. I hate myself for not caring. This is the third night I'm going to attempt to revise my thesis - for defense. The previous night, I fell asleep while trying to edit my thesis. So now, I plopped myself onto the computer chair (which is actually a very uncomfortable Mono Bloc) to make sure I don't fall asleep. But what am I doing? I'm updating this journal. Geezus.

Actually, I'm really really excited for ELEVATE and our concert. Maybe that's why I feel like everything else has to take a backseat. Which when I think about now, doesn't seem to be practical. I should get my academic stuff in order before I even care about my dancing. Ugh. So yes, tonight I will fix my thesis and possibly start revising my short story for Children's Lit. And then, maybe I can find time to work on two papers and research for a group discussion happening next Thursday. I can do this. Will. Power.