It's been raining and the only thing good about it is the cool weather. It was great being in an airconditioned room for a class that runs `til 7 in the evening. (: Too bad some classmates thought it was a bit too cold so they turned down (or off?) the aircon. Kaye and I started fanning ourselves after awhile. Haha.

We talked about CONFLICT in class today. In another class, I was told that I use the "FORCING" style of conflict management the most. Then, in IPC today, we talked about conflict and how it's actually helpful in a relationship. Our teacher told us a story about a couple who went for counselling before their marriage. The pastor asked them how many times they've fought in their relationship. And they said they've never had a major fight. The pastor told them to fight first then, he'll marry them.

I just remembered how I never fought with my ex. (Oooh, incidentally, it's his birthday today.) Never. I never really pick a fight with anyone, and I don't know if it's a good thing. I get along with everyone, generally. I only fight with my family. Haha. But there, today, I learned something. How do you know your relationship is healthy if you don't know whether or not you'll be able to reconcile and get across whatever conflict you have with each other, if you don't fight? Not to say that I'm going to start fighting with my friends, but you know. I suppose it's not a good thing to gunny sack (oooh! I was able to use the term!), saving up all your "sama ng loob" for that single time you decide to, uh, erupt. It's always good to tell a person how you feel exactly rather than keep it to yourself.

But how can I even be "forcing" when I don't even have anything to force? Hmm. Weird. All this Speech Comm information is making me overanalyze things.

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I missed the auditions for ELEVATE tonight. My class is `til 7 and it just ended when I arrived at the gym. Great. I'm not really expecting to get in since they're only getting twenty? fifteen? people. Doh. So obviously the people from Team A & B will be the ones competing. But maybe I'd just like the thrill of being able to audition. The thought of passing it up would be stupid. I mean, why else did I risk all the knee-bruises and muscle pains if I'm not even going to try, right? So judgment day for me (and the bunch of people who didn't come tonight) is on Thursday. I'll work on the routine in my head whenever I can't practice for real and I'll keep running it when I can. So even if I don't get in, I can make like William Hung and say, "I did my best and I have no regrets."