Last night, was another ritual of sorts in the club. I have supposedly "accepted Christ" into my life. Honestly, I don't know why I did it "again". (I'm pretty sure we did this sometime last sem, or last year.) Because I'm pretty sure I have him in my life already. I'm not saying my spiritual life is perfect - it's far from that, but anyway. Last night, I was thinking, What does it mean? I'm Catholic, if we're talking about religions here. I've been one since birth. And although there was a time in my life that I've had doubts about being one (with all the controversies surrounding the Roman Catholic Church), I'm pretty much comfortable with my faith now. I know I don't go to Mass just for the sake of it. I still feel this pang of hurt whenever our moderator (or whoever's leading the ministry) mentions something that I feel is an attack to my religion (re: priests, saints, Mass, etc.). So now, I'm thinking, do they expect me to go to the services that they go to? Sometimes I feel like they push the idea too much. I know they mean well, but I'm pretty sure they're scaring off the people. Could I be wrong? I just hope that they don't take it against us if we still continue to attend whatever services we've been going to.

Ah, I don't know.

I'm going to try and do devotionals. I wonder if it'll work for me. My mom has a truckload of books with all these Bible guides. I'm going to try and read on my own, without anyone having to dictate to me what I should, or shouldn't do.